Mother of Pearl

This year will be the first Mother’s Day that I will not be locked in my house avoiding anyone and everyone, the internet, cell phone or TV. I will happily join in on the celebration and I can’t even begin to describe how that feels. It will be a bright day, not a dark gloomy day filled with tears. Ok, there might still be tears because let’s face it

1.) I am pregnant and I cry ALL the time

2.) Infertility is a beast and even though I am pregnant it still hurts and all the past years and pain is still with me

3.) I will most likely be crying happy tears

However, I am still apprehensive about celebrating Mother’s Day before this baby comes. I am still worried sick she won’t come. But I am trying really hard to keep the positive vibes flowing. You see two years ago this week was when I had my miscarriage. I didn’t tell a soul except a handful of people. That was suppose to be my first happy Mother’s Day. But instead I was mourning the loss of a baby and basically doing it alone (with Ryan of course). I look back and wish I hadn’t done it alone, but I was mortified and couldn’t even talk about it. So needless to say my husband and I do not celebrate this holiday. We buy our Mother’s gifts and tell them how much we appreciate them, but it is not to be spoken of in my house. However, this year is different. The baby could come any day and I am secretly wishing for Sunday. It would be the best Mother’s Day EVER! However, if she is stubborn like her mamma she will come late.

And since this is my first happy Mother’s Day I have already picked out what I want. Usually I am fine with a box of chocolates for silly little holidays {or any day for that matter}, but there is something I have wanted for a LONG time. I showed it to the Mister months ago and told him exactly how I want it made too. Is that terrible? I just find it easier to give him links and tell him exactly what I want rather than secretly hope he gets it for me when he has NO idea I am wanting something in particular. So with out further ado, I had better be getting one of these not too long after the baby is born:

 

I told him not to order it until after she is born so that we know for sure what we are naming her and how we are spelling it. But I LOVE the idea of having a piece of jewelry for each of my kids. And I LOVE the Mother of Pearl.  [The Vintage Pearl has tons of uber cute stuff!]

On a serious note - as I sit and think about all this I want others to be aware and be sensitive this week. Be understanding if your friends/family who have struggled with infertility, miscarriage, loss of a child and so on… go under the radar this week and don’t show up to events. Know that they are hibernating until this holiday passes. It’s not easy and my heart goes out to anyone who may be hurting instead of celebrating.

And to our mammas – we LOVE you tons!!! thanks for all you do!!!